A wish made on a shooting star...

A dream left on a wrinkled pillow...

Goals let slip to the side and slowly forgotten...

Countless tears on an unwashed cheek...

A life remembered but never lived...

 

Where sits my soul now, in silent peace or still twisting in anguish from unresolved conflict?  I cannot tell.  I search my heart for answers but only find more questions.  My mind swims, dizzy with possibility and regret. 

 

I am lost.  My recent past makes no sense, the manic flutterings of an unsettled mind.  My future is blank, devoid of ideas, plans or goals.  I am lost.

 

From where do I draw the strength to move ahead, to forge a new plan, to let free all those things I have suppressed for so long?  From where do I draw the strength to become me?

 

Deep breath.  Eyes closed.  Silence.  Just me for a moment.  Flying, twisting towards the sky in ribbons of pink and red.  Somewhere an answer, somewhere a future.  Somewhere a promise. 

 

Deep breath.  Eyes open.  Silence.  Still me.  A promise not forgotten, tears washed away, dreams remembered.  A fire kindled, slowly starting to burn the night away.